I'm insignificant. I know. I wish I could change, for the better.
I'm trying to accept myself. But I just can't do it.
Will you help me?
I'm crying on the inside
Nothing could help me.
I just want to let you know
that my love is for you to see.
Please, don't give up fighting
give yourself hope
cos God will be here to give you strength
to guide you wherever you go
Please stay strong
for everyone, for us.
We'll pray for you
till the very last.
Please. Do it for us.
And; I'm fading in the corner. I wish I could be back into the past.
God, please guide her and bless her in heaven.
edit:// Everyone keeps asking me if I'm all right.
Am I really? That, I have no answer. But I shall pray for Chloe, and I pray for everyone, including for myself to be strong to be able to pass through this saddening and unbearable moments.
Amen.
Ack. I look horrendous. -.-
Hahah. Anw, I had ballet exam today so I didn't go to school. Hence the timing of this blog post! :D *ahem* Sorry Vanna, for pang-sehing you.
PS. OMG!!! I think I danced really BADLY ! My mind just blanked out and the examinor is SUPER strict with this bony face. I can hardly see her eyes cos' of her specs. Somehow, the specs remind me of Gwong's. She totally just took my confidence out of me whenever I saw her!
And once I even poked out my tongue cos I did a movement wrong. -.- Oh joy.
Sigh. I seriously can't wait to see my marks kay. Ballet may be unfailable no matter how lousy you dance (o.o) but Mr Fan will surely pick on me the next grade. ):
PSS. Our examinor is Jean Wong btw. She's famous in Hong Kong. Which means that she marks strict and has high expectations. And I had a lot of mistakes. HOW FABULOUS!! -.-
Juliani tying her shoes. :D MY stupid shoes were irritating me by the laces. -.-
Xinhui doing splits. :D
And me, with my ugly hair. -.-
:D Okay! I'm done. I just want this post to be short and over with. I can't stand thinking about this day, ugh! ): Sigh. Dear god, please, look over her.
xxxnaisxxx
Hello, happy mellow yellow friends! (:
Yes, I'm verryyyyyyyyy happy this week.
GUESS WHY.
Eh. No. Not because DJ has rebonded her hair and the fact that I am fretting over her homework cos I did not bring the teenage digest and the Yue du file home. She just have to wait for me to choing on it when I come back to school on Monday. ): Omg! I dreamt that I never manage to complete any work when I get back to school. == Spastic dream.
And no again, cos yeah, its good friday, but a holiday isn't complete with NARVs! Changi is too far, my dear darling Vanna. Sorryyy. And dumb jiawen had to be sick! D: Hahah. Get well soon too, you smelly obsessed-over-Darwis-and-Seewah Banana.
RANDOM PIC OF CAM-WHORING D:
I feel like eating Subway cookies on a rainy day.
Eh. Firstly. I love CIP. :D Especially the bus rides!
Went to Red Cross on Wednesday. Red cross is a home for people with disabilities. In case you don't know where it is, {I also don't know either (-.-)} its in this super ulu place squash in some corner surrounded by many terrace house with no sign of life. Except a cat walking about the toilets outside the building. Rachel warned me and Vanna that this CIP trip is more boring than the Metta's Home. Not saying that Metta's Home is boring of course! xD Its quite enjoyable, especially molesting doors. (;
Okay. PICTURES! Yes, these are the pictures that we took on the bus ride to Red cross! I stole all the pics from Vanna :D COS SPASTIC KIRSTIE is TOO LAZY to send them to me cos all the pictures that we took are taken from her camera. Pok.
Me and Kirstie :D Omg, she looks like she went for Facial!!!
PRESENTING THE RETARDED NELIA AND KIM SEAH, RESIDENTS OF FROG AND OCTOPUS RESIDENTS! Bunch of nehnehpoks. (:
HAHA. SEEWAH!!
TO JIAWEN : My blog pictures can't be stolen. (: Hint!
Me and my precious darling VANNA. I really want to take out the smiley face but I can't cos I stole this from her blog. -.- Retarded. BE DAZZLED BY HER BEAUTY KAY.
Eh. I love this photo. Artistic right?? Vanna took this. (: I'm going to use it for Facebook!
And another artistic photo taken by Vanna ong. :D
This was taken when we were going upstairs to clean the rooms. (: I offered to take a picture of them, including Vanna but Vanna didn't want to be inside. -.- And I was holding a pail.
Took jump shots when we were done cleaning. (: Didn't have much chance to interact with people cos first, I'm SHY. YES, SHY. And they didn't really want to chat with me. ): Instead, some of them watched the TV instead. Except Christopher, HAHA. Gwong kept taking pics. -.-
So it was allowable to take photoes! Gwong even offered his camera to I forgot who to take our jump shot pics. Apparently, Kirstie's camera is kind of slow so it couldn't catch us in mid-air. ==
I know my jump poses are weird so don't laugh!!
Kirstie's boobsxz are bigsxzz. :D HAHA. SORRY. I couldn't help it!
BUT. SOMEONE'S JUMP POSE IS SOMEHOW WEIRDER. -.-
-x-
Ah yes! And If you're wondering why am I so high and happy, I shall tell you why.
:D
YES!!!
I WAS CHOSEN TO BE AN EX-CO IN ART CLUB! AND IN THE POSITION THAT I HAVE REQUESTED TO AS WELL!
HEHEHE. :D
THANK YOU TO EVERYONE, WHO HAD VOTED FOR ME! I LOVE YOU ALL SO SO MUCH!!!! xD Btw, Jiawen. Its not the TOILET DECORATING LEADER. -.-
Mmmm! :D
And congrats to Peining, Nichole, Jennifer and Ann as well. (: We will all do a great job and stay in the exco after this TRAIL week kay? We can do it! (And I don't mean the sick way)
Nichole Ho: President
Tan Pei Ning: Vice-President
ME! : Logistics
Ann Tang: Welfare
Jennifer Teo: Admin
Hahah. :D I'm supppperrrr happy!
But unfortunately, my parents didn't really show any signs of happiness. -.- NO. I am happy with what I had achieved! And I have come up with this equation that it can never be solved!
AILIN + PRESIDENT + ART CLUB = ???!???!??? EXPLOSION
HAHAHA. AND I'M WAITING, NARVS. YES, I AM.
So anyway.
I'm going to post about what happened yesterday, at 11th April. Went out with Vanna, Germaine and Kirstie NEOOOOOO.
Its nothing special really; just some normal funny stuff on a friends' outing. (: But I CAN MAKE YOU DROOL OVER FOOOOOOD.
The main reason we went out was to discuss the science project actually; and the slides and everything. But APPARENTLY, we finished discussing over it in 10 MINUTES in the library. Germaine was whining cos it was over so quickly. Thinking about it, we can actually discuss this over MSN so this meeting is unnecessary. -.- But who doesn't want to have the chance of going out with your dear friends? (:
HAHAH. Kirstie our MOTHER. :D
We teased her cos she looks the oldest among the rest of us partly because of her _____. (: Germaine said that she looks 18. I said she looks 16. So I dared her to blag about her age and sneak into the cinema to watch Slumdog Millionaire. *ITS A NC 16 MOVIE!* But its not showing in cinema's anymore. What a pity.
Hmm. Typical Unglam-ness?
But Vanna had to leave at 2:30pm cos she and her sisters were going to watch Jonas Brother's 3D. SHE PANG SEH ME. ): Actually, I also don't mind watching even I'm not really a fan. :D
*Ahem* Anw, Yep! After PETITE Vanna (:D) went with her family, WE went to walk around AMK hub. Okay, walk wasn't the right word. Drift is more like it. We didn't know where we were heading, so we just wander around. Then we spotted this near the arcade!
I think its cool. (: So I clamoured to have a picture taken with my 'MOM'. The objective I took the picture because I like the heart thingy. Not because I wanted to win those tickets. But I don't mind watching it all the same. Cam-whored!
GERMAINE'S LOVE FOR __________ :D
MY LOVE, FOR MY 'MOM'. :D
*RANDOM* Germaine say Alice is chio! :D I think the Alice's I've known so far are all pretty!
Like: Alice in Wonderland & Twilight!
Okay. Now I'm seriously going to make you drool. (: No. Not the Jonas Brother's picture kay.
Cos, yet again, after the short phototaking session, we again, wondered around. And walking builds up a hefty appetite, yeah? :D
So. The only thing that appetizes me now is. . .
YAMI YOGURTTT!!!!!!!!!!!
I can't believe Kirstie and Germaine never ate it before. 0.0 Hahah. The picture above is actually Yogurt ice cream. HOW COOL IS THAT? :D Its soooo good!
PS. Kirstie, as usual, bought the Medium one. I wonder how she finished it, seriously. Me and germaine shared one with Orea cookie topping! ITS A MUST TRY! AND ONLY FOR $3.00! I know its a bit expensive though , for just a small cup. xD
So anyway. I was still hungry after the Yogurt. Kirstie suggests that we go to subway and take our own sweet time to eat cookies and talk. Well. Cos' she has blisters on her feet, due to her shoes with HEELS. I think SNEAKERS rocks the best, along with slippers. xD
Bought 3 double choc cookies! Wanted to buy just choco chip but germaine bought wrongly. -.- Nehneh. Then I complained that I was thirsty, so MOM bought us a Subway drink, mixed with Sprite and F&N Orange. I dislike F&N orange cos of its gasiness. ): Hahah. Sorry Kirstie!
Germaine left us as well mid way after eating her cookie to meet her REAL mum. :D I bought the New Paper as well and read about this teen giving off her Nude photoes for Pet Society' furniture just for the thrill. I think you should go and see the doctor, girl. Is it all what's your dignity worth? -.- Its just a virtual world, for god's sake! Get over it !
GUESS WHAT. I was stil hungry after Subway. o.o I think I'm becoming to be like Jughead, and I need to lose a little weight cos my ballet skirt is super tight! But Mos burger is beckoning to me with it's fries. OH ITS DELICIOUS FRIES. So, me and kirstie went to bag a seat and start eating hot golden chips mixed with Tomato sauce. OMG. YUM! So much better than Mac's fries. (:
And I have this GREAT IDEA, inspiration credited to ARCHIES!
YES! FRIENDS! Lets organise this EATING COMPETITION KAY? :D See who can go to the most restaurants in AMK hub and eat AT LEAST one item in each in a certain amount of time kay? It doesn't matter about the price, just eat something! THE WINNER GETS A $5000 PRIZE!
In monopoly money of course. :D
So yeah? please! For fun, and for entertainment sake! If you are fussed about gaining weight, you could buy vegetarien pastries or pies. xD The budget should be about $50 I guess. Drinks DOES COUNT AS WELL. (: Hey, maybe I will try after my dance exam. :D
-x-
So yeah. That's the end of the day. I went back home, satisfied and full!
Okay. One more random picture while I end of this post!
WE MISS YOU, MR GAN! COME BACK, TO US!
):
kay, bye tooty fruit cakes!
xxxnaisxx
